Money.

Money is only a tool. Yeah, right. Tell this to rich people. Money is an end in itself. You can't stop somewhere. It's a journey with no destination. It's a race. If somebody else wins, it's his/her luck. If you do, it was just hardwork, nothing else. I need most optimum skillset to make best use of my time to make most money.
Natural resources, bid for them. Bargain deals, go for them. Invest cheap, reap extraordinary returns. Lerant the trends. networking is important. Be on good books of govt.
Kids must go to best schools. they should learn tools of trade.
I hate all this. I really hate all this.

Dream.

I sleep in afternoon. Now hang me. :) I had a dream today. I had doubt that I was having Hypertension. I went to a doctor. He injected inside me a bubble of air. It was very painful. When enquired, the answer was, it would travel through your body, depending on pain you experience we calculate the pressures. Cool way, I thought, but painful. When bubble was on top of my skull, everything blurred. Soon it was sucked and results were out. 280/20.
That sounded horrible, I am going to die. With whom I should share this information. If I share , I will be craving for sympathy. If I don't, I will implode.
Self pity took over.
That was it. End of ordeal. I woke up tired.
Why Hypertension. It's in my blood. Atleast previous generation and next generation.

Update.

I am doing fine. 2006 is a bad year. I don't believe in such artificial time periods. :)

Sure.

I was so sure of everything. "WAS"
A friend was saying that my recent posts sound depressed. Probably. Either I have good (bad) reasons to be depressed or I don't have good reasons not to be depressed.
And guess nobody is hurt by my state of my mind. :)
You don't get hurt when you don't care. ;)

What's wrong with me?

I am greedy. (books, games, laptops...money)
I am not physically very active.
I am lazy.
I am not very comprehensive at times.
I use brain where I shouldn't.
I am addict for few not so good things.
I don't spend as much time as I should with my kids.
I am a bit disorganised.
I try too many things at a time and feel bad about failing.
I appear shabby at times. (On account of laziness)
I say "yes" when I want to say "no". (I say yes for almost every thing and then regret)


Some more, some other time.

Are you still there?

I mean any readers still?
I am travelling a lot these days. Logging on to net for very short times, hence lack of updates. No good news to update.
Hopefully sometime soon.

State of person

How am I doing? Not happy. Not sad. Not enthusiastic, not depressed. Not feeling young, Not feeling low.
Reading some stuff, as always. Completed IWoz , biography of Steve wozniak. It read like "I did this amzing thing, I did that amazing thing.." And probably he is an amazing person in reality.
My new laptop re arrived, don't know what is fixed. It restarts a little less. I love integrated webcam, though not going to use even once in life time. :) Love the design, colors.
Will be loading atleast 10 games and playing atleast 2 of them, before I get bored with this laptop.
This is a crappy post. Being rustic. Bear with me. expect better days.